The last 4 months I have been pre-occupied and kept away from writing for a bit (even though writing makes me happy and it is freeing) and even hidden away from my friends. But it wasn’t straight away, I disappeared slowly over time. my point is, I knew something was up but, I was too…

This is a similar blog to last week and a blog called ‘hidden agenda, always be kind. But I was walking today and saw some roses. And here was my thought and to write to you. With a rose there are layers and petals. It starts off small and grows into something beautiful. It opens…

I was walking this morning and walking through the leaves that had fallen from the trees. So many colours. So beautiful. And it got me thinking… Life is like the seasons in the year. But Autumn in particular, think about the trees, they bloom so beautifully and bright and bold, they go through so much…

So, most of you know, I have two forms of cancer. Both are in my cells and can come back anytime and one was high grade. I have another check-up coming up and for the last month I have been so on edge, nervous, sick, and just plain scared. I am so over being in…

Life is just full. Sometimes Em doesn’t even know how to handle it and how to act. Lately the hand Em has been dealt is not okay, not sure which card to play and how to hold it all in place. Sometimes, I still think it would be easier to disappear, run away and not…

Lately I have been putting on a brave face and trying to keep it together. In the last two months. My sickness and health have been struggling and I have been in intense pain every 2 weeks. I am under a lot of stress due to study, work, health, license, finance, and everything else. And…

Being scared sometimes comes with life. and lately that seems to be all my life. the unknown, the waiting, people telling me to believe and have faith, and saying if I do or did things, certain ways then these things would be different. Well, I am not you and I am on my own journey.…

You know in life when you dream of something, becoming something or being something or someone. And when that dream doesn’t come true or can’t happened because your body is so fucked up. And you had to have everything wrong with you. You never see it happening and you give up. Well I always wanted…

I do not understand life, people or behaviour is the main one. You date people. You make friends with people and for some reason things turn out not what you expected or just shit. And for some reason you are always the one to be blamed and told it is for your fault. When you…

Why do we think we have too or need to explain ourselves to everyone. Life is full of surprises and hurdles. And sometimes we can’t explain why things happen the way they do and how. But one thing I have learnt over the years is we don’t always have to explain ourselves to everyone, nor…