How do we trust people and build trust. When they break your trust how to get it back and do you. Is it worth it. 
When you have been hurt. When you have been broken. How do we build it back and what do we do in the meantime. We over think it. We do shit that stresses us out more than the situation. Do we drink. Do we gamble. Do we eat. Do we stay away from everyone. Do we hide indoors. Do we make things harder for ourselves then what is needed. How do we go about this. And how does it get broken by one person. You do everything right and are the good person, but it always comes back at you and the bad person wins. And they don’t care what they have done or how they went about it. 
I have had these challenges in all areas of my life. And it seems to get harder. Even when you do what’s right. I’m 34 and I don’t want drama. I don’t want to cause shit. I don’t like people who are all about drama and make it their priority to do it. I don’t have time, and I don’t need to waste energy. But how do we not let it affect us. And keep going about our day without letting it get to us. 
I know what I do and how I act, in the meantime when things are happening. And it’s not okay. And I want to change. Cause I know I haven’t done anything wrong, and I do right by everyone. And when they fuck up. I am the one is struggles not them. They don’t care. Well, that is what it seems like. It seems you can do everything right, do right by that person and treat them with the respect they deserve, all to get it thrown in your face. And they keep doing it and they seem to not care at all. And i struggle day to day trying to figure out why and how.  

But never seem to get the answers. But it won’t stop me from treating them respectfully and being nice to them. I am not about revenge or treating them how they have treated me. They can do whatever they want to me. And I’ll always be me and treat people how i wanted to be treated. 

Life is a bitch. But life is worth living. And life is worth it. And so are You.