Death is a sad time. It is so hard. It’s heart breaking. And there’s so much pain for those who lose someone. I know the person who has passed is in a better place, less pain and free. But my god it sucks for us. So much hurt. So many tears. And living away from family makes it harder. 

With everything that I have been through, yes I have thought about dying and how easier it would be for Me. I would not be sick. I would not have memories of DV. I would not have memories and people telling me all the shit and lies. I would not have to lose anyone else and go through heart break and loss. Yes it is selfish to think about it this way. But for me as an individual It would be easier. But then I remember my life, the joys, the love, and the people I know and how blessed I am and can be and how sad it would be to leave it and the people in my life. Never give up on yourself or others, especially those you love. Keep fighting for your people and your health.

You are important! Always.

Nana I will miss you. Nana I love you. 92 and you lived a great life. I want a marriage like yours! Thank you for everything. Be at peace, say hello to Grandpa for me (you are together again) and I love you both always.