Being scared sometimes comes with life. and lately that seems to be all my life. the unknown, the waiting, people telling me to believe and have faith, and saying if I do or did things, certain ways then these things would be different. Well, I am not you and I am on my own journey. You can believe what you like and whatever but don’t force it onto someone else who is going through shit and has seen too much in too little time to believe and see it how it is. You can’t tell someone that they don’t have what they have because you don’t want to believe it and you believe in another power.

I believe there is a God or something out there. But where I am at, I need to process and deal with this my way. My specialist is amazing and he is the best one I have had in 10 years, I have had more tests, more results, more answers in 3 months then I have had in 10 years. He is acting quickly and effectively to help me long term. And right now, I don’t need people in my face telling me that, that is not the case and I don’t believe that. I spent 8 years believing and praying I would have a baby with my ex-husband despite what the doctors have told me, I didn’t give up. I even had leaders in the church stand with me and pray with me. Until everything fell apart. And then some of those leaders, turn their backs and questioned me about am I living the right path by God and doing what he wants. Well, the truth of the matter, I had no control over my husband walking out. I tried everything; I gave it my all.

Religious is so backwards these days. A lot of Christians preach what and how we should live. But my gosh some of them do not live by it. If you are going to preach, do not judge, love thy neighbour, accept everyone for who they are and if God can meet us where we are at, WHY can’t you? Maybe look in the mirror, before you go and judge someone else. We are all unique and have our own story. Stop trying to write your way into someone else’s and stop trying to change them and stop judging. Wow. Religion struggles well I wonder why. Love how God loved. Act like God acted. Who are you seriously to judge someone and try to change them.

Everyone has their own story. They have their own hand that has been dealt and they need to play it out. But they need friends and people around them to encourage and stand by them. Not to put pressure on them and tell them how to live and what to do. because no one goes through the same story. And no one knows what to say or what to do. let alone the person in the middle of the shit. But I can tell you this. you will get out of the situation and make it. You will be happier and amazed at what you can do. we all have our own hand that has been dealt and we are playing one card at a time. life is worth living and gosh you have got this.

Everybody’s story is REAL. DIFFERENT. HARD. EASY. SADNESS. HAPPINESS. HEART ACHE. FAMILY. CAREER. BREAKUPS. ETC. whatever your story is it is yours. And you can do it. You can go through it. You have got this. don’t look to the left or right. Don’t look at other people’s story. No one is the same. And that other person couldn’t handle your story.

You are amazing. You are loved. You are worth it. You are you for a reason.