17 September 2023

I need the warmth and water.

I felt alive in Port Macquarie even though I had a procedure. Loved walking along the water. Sitting by the water. Soaking up the sun.

I want to move north. I love being home and with Dad and Mum. Especially going through what I am. But I don’t like Glen Innes. It’s not for me.

I want to live. Make my own friends. Be busy. Live life. My own place. Have dinner parties. Go out at night. Have fun. Have a life.

As who knows how long I have and where I’ll end up and what’s going to happen.

I am fucking scared and don’t want to waste my life. Glen nines has nothing for me.

4 March 2024

Well hasn’t time changed. I love Glen Innes. Love my job. Love my life. Love my friends. Love being happy. Life is amazing.

Doing more. Seeing more. Living more. Hanging out more. Getting promotions. Getting friendships. I recently went back to port Macquarie and I did not like it. Too many people. Too busy. The water was amazing but that is it. I prefer where I am and what I am doing. Life is too good. I am the happiest I have been in a very very long time.

I am me Em Bell and I love who I have become and my world has changed for the better.

If you think you need something, someone, or somewhere else. Then give it time. Be patient. Open your eyes. And deal your hand again. Because life is worth making where you are at. Make the best of every situation. Yes, I know it is hard and way beyond sometimes. But it is worth it. And worth being kind and happy.

Your happiness is most important. And I have been dealt a hell of a hand in the last 5 years but I am coming out of that. Becoming me. Finding who I am. Living. And I did not want to do it and wanted to give up. But I have pushed through with help and still pushing through but I am getting there and I am happy.

I don’t have everything but I have enough. I am enough.

And guess what. So are You. and you have enough. Keep Going.