This honestly breaks my heart. I am so passionate about it. Because every story is so fucking different. And we have no idea what is going on. we only ever get one side of a story and things are left out.

BE KIND. LOVE EVERYONE.

MY HEART IS ALWAYS OPEN. MY HEART WILL NEVER CLOSE ANYONE OFF. I GOT YOU.

We are so quick to judge people. Even when we haven’t been in the situation.

Even if we have been in a similar situation we still cannot judge. Because every story, every person, every situation is so different, and no one can tell you what to do or how to handle it. All we can do is share our story. Or shut up and listen and be there for them. We all have our own battles, and some people go through hell more than others. And if we tell them what to do and how to do life. it could well and truly make things worse for that person and fuck everything up.  My Dada always says be Kind and Gracious with people and in life.

I went through this. parts of my story below and will be more…

And believe me people had their input and had to have their 2cents. But no one could tell me what to do, because no one knew. And I had to go through it, because I chose him. I chose that path. I chose that hand. And yes, it broke me, and I saw no light, but it made me stronger, and I am so happy. the story I can tell, the story I can write, the hand I have been dealt, the people I have met, the experiences, my story I can tell you to help you or to encourage you. I wouldn’t change my story. I am ME for a reason. I am Em Bell. And I love who I am. I know who I am.

Although don’t get me wrong no one deserves to go through cancer, no one deserves to deal with domestic violence, no one deserves to get sick, no one deserves to be told they don’t belong, no one deserves to be belittled, no one deserves to get told you are and were an accident, no one deserves death, no one deserves sadness, no one deserves sickness, no one deserves to be spoken to like shit, no one deserves divorce, no one deserves to go from job to job, no one deserves to be verbally, mentally or physically abused. No one deserves heart ache and to be walked all over.

But I know if I didn’t go through what I did. I would not be the person I am TODAY. I could be better. I could be different. I could be someone else. I would have a different life. but it is all ‘could’ and ‘would’ and I don’t really want to go down a path for coulds and woulds. And not to have gone through what I did. But that is what makes life great at the same time. the unexpected, the unknown, the surprises, the new beginnings, the new adventures. Life is full of

There is a song called Doin’ This by Luke Combs. (I will post lyrics below)

But one line in the song says ‘I’d still be doin’ this if I wasn’t doin’ this’

I agree with this line because I would be. I love my life. I love who I am. I love who I have become. I love it all. And in my 33 years I have never said that and to top it off. I even have a smile on my face while saying it. Which it makes me happier.

Darling if I can be this happy so can you. But promise me you will love and accept everyone equally and please don’t judge anyone and talk down on anyone because YOU do not know someone else’s story. Everyone deserves to be loved and to be the best they can be with all the help we can give. I am so passionate about this, and I want the world to know. I want you to know how happy I am, and I want people to know how to treat others. Because I have been through fucking hell and so much heart ache. And I am still here and love you all. And I do not judge and will not and do not tell you how to live your life. because I know and I have been there. I got you.

Please don’t let anyone tell you that you are worthless or not good enough. Because you are so worth it and so amazing. You need to know you are loved and just fucking amazing. I am Em Bell and I got you and will always. Because I know what it is like and what hell is like. I know how hard it is and I know what it is like to come from nothing to everything. And I know what it is like to not give up but at the same time want to give so much because life was not worth living. But it is so worth it.

Going through cancer and domestic violence and trying to find who you are all at once and then deciding to share your story with others and help them through similar things is huge. But I believe in helping others and being a mentor and telling others, you are worth it. And you are loved and will be okay. Is the best thing I can do. because my darling I got you.

I wouldn’t wish what I have been though on anyone, not even the person who has hurt me the most. Because no one. I mean no one deserves that. Even that person deserves love and to know they are worth more.

Everyone has a different healing process, and we deal with things differently.

I will add more to this weekly. And all this will be in my book I am writing and will share with you everything. I cannot wait.

‘Doin’ This’ by Luke Combs – please listen.

“What was growing up like, where’d you go to school?”
“And what would you do if you weren’t doin’ this?”
I’d be drivin’ my first car, an old worn-out Dodge
Tryin’ to make rent with a dead end job, just makin’ due
With tips in a jar, my guitar and an old barstool

I’d have a Friday night crowd in the palm of my hand
Cup of brown liquor, couple buddies in a band
Singin’ them same damn songs like I am now
I’d be feelin’ on fire on a hardwood stage
Bright lights like lightning runnin’ through my veins
At the Grand Ole Opry or a show in some no-name town
I’d still be doin’ this if I wasn’t doin’ this

I’d still be the same guy they knew back in the day
Who was burnin’ CDs just to give away
Payin’ his dues if I wasn’t doin’ this
Five deep in a van, head full of steam
Hot on the heels of my neon dreams maybe comin’ true
Livin’ this life just like I was born to do

I’d have a Friday night crowd in the palm of my hand
Cup of brown liquor, couple buddies in a band
Singin’ them same damn songs like I am now
I’d be feelin’ on fire on a hardwood stage
Bright lights like lightning runnin’ through my veins
At the Grand Ole Opry or a show in some no-name town
I’d still be doin’ this if I wasn’t doin’ this

It ain’t about the fame
It ain’t about the fortune
It ain’t about the name
It ain’t about the glory
I guess I’m sayin’ it’s always been about

Having a Friday night crowd in the palm of my hand
Cup of brown liquor, couple buddies in a band
Singin’ them same damn songs like I am now
I’d be feelin’ on fire on a hardwood stage
Bright lights like lightning runnin’ through my veins
At the Grand Ole Opry or a show in some no-name town
I’d still be doin’ this if I wasn’t doin’ this

Someone asked me once in an interview
“What was growing up like, where’d you go to school?”
“And what would you do if you weren’t doin’ this?”