Starting over is scary and definitely is hard. But staying in a shit relationship, shit job, or even not taking that promotion, new job, or not going on that adventure, it can be anything. And not doing it and stepping out can even be more scary and so much harder and you could regret it later.
I only learnt this recently since getting out of a relationship again and going through a whole lot more. But, in the relationship, I was in too deep and too afraid to leave. (Thinking it was the best and thinking I was happy) but I have learnt that I was not happy, and I didn’t know who I was. I knew I had lost myself but I was too scared to step out and start again.
But since being out on my own, being home, I am now more scared to leave and start on my own again.
I really want too, and would love to be on my own. But then I don’t want to be.
As right now what I’m going through doesn’t feel like it will end.
These tests, procedures and trips are taking it out of me. Some days it evens gets the best of me. And I feel I have failed in all areas. and to be honest I can’t start over. And I have never been so scared. I am more scared now then I was when I had to make the choice to start over and leave my ex.
If maybe things ended differently than the way they did. Things might be different and easier. But they didn’t.

And maybe you are going through something or have a decision to make and scared to start over. But hey you got this. You can do it.
Still be scared, but also be brave. Be strong. Be courageous. And don’t stop living.

A friend told me, to have a positive attitude. Get rid of negative people and they sucked it up and got on with life.
Yes, it is easier said than done. And when you’re in the midst of everything it is hard to be positive and get on with life. But it can be done. As this friend of mine has been through worse and still going through things yet he has come out stronger and has a positive outlook on life and lives his best life. Makes each day count.

I want that. And I want that for you. 

This song is one of my favourites at the moment, the lyrics I have copied are so true. Hits home.

Til you can’t by Cody Johnson

Don’t wait on tomorrow, ’cause tomorrow may not show
Say your sorry’s, your I love you’s
‘Cause man, you never know

If you got a chance, take it
Take it while you got a chance
If you got a dream chase it
‘Cause a dream won’t chase you back
If you’re gonna love somebody
Hold ’em as long and as strong and as close as you can
‘Til you can’t

I added this song too, as Chris is amazing and one of my favourite artists and these lyrics apply.

Songs help heal us and change the mood too.

Starting over by Chris Stapleton

Well the road rolls out like a welcome mat
To a better place than the one we’re at
And I ain’t got no kinda plan
But I’ve had all of this town I can stand
And I got friends out on the coast
We can jump in the water and see what floats
We’ve been saving for a rainy day
Let’s beat the storm and be on our way

It don’t matter to me
Wherever we are is where I wanna be
And, honey, for once in our life
Let’s take our chances and roll the dice