So, 10 years it all started.
And it is still going on.
There are so many women out there who are going through this as well. And I am telling; You are not alone.
Yes, everyone’s journey, sickness, pain is different. But PCOS syndrome, endometriosis, cancer we all struggle with it. It does exist. And is real. And it is SHIT.
Wanting to be a Mum so badly that you put your career last as your one dream was/is to be a Mum.
And being told you cannot, it is impossible, you will struggle to fall pregnant, it will not work, ivf might not work, the tablets have not worked. Your dream gets crushed! I have cried a million tears and more. And I have no comments. No answers. No questions. To why or how. But someone once told me. You are a Mum in other ways. Which I know it is not the same. And will never fill that void, that hole in your heart. But any body, any child, any step kid, niece, nephew, friends you would do anything for. Are Lucky to have you! You are a blessing to them.
I have been told too many times; it is not going to happen. You will struggle. And with my latest results who knows. I know if I could now do I want too as I do not want my daughter to go through what I am. (But if I did and could have a daughter or son, she/he would be my world and I would do anything for them and give them the world.) Break ups are shit and horrible, but I think this is worse. Your dream taken from you, feels like it gets taken crushed up and thrown in the trash! And I have had the bad thoughts of not being here. But then I would not see my Nieces and Nephews grow up and I would not be their Aunty Em. They all have my heart.
And if I cannot, I know deep deep down I will be okay. ‘I have enough’
So, whatever you are going through. You are not alone. You are enough. You have enough. You are valued. You are loved.
You are You for a reason. You are here for a purpose.
I am Yet to know mine and still figuring it out, but maybe this is it. To tell others how it is. this is real. life’s a bitch. But we are still here. Still standing. Still breathing. We have fought this far. We will try and keep going.
You have got this.